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Put me back in my Fantasy.. Everyday just gets more unbelievable... and I say to myself.. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE? It's possible to say Black Lives Matter.. when Lives matter.. kind of redundant. but how how it possible to say Black Live Matter.. When Lives don't matter How can i deal with it..? The Truth and the Lies The Wall and the Shutdown. The ignorance, the pain and the suffering The corruption Voter interference, voting fraud, and voting restrictions, gerrymandering, the rights of those in power Propaganda, hacking, money laundering and maneuvering, the economy, history What is the TRUTH? The conspiracy.. that once was the privy of the powerless to fight the powerful..Is really the conspiracy of the powerful to put down the powerless... With the likes of this weeks news....about security clearances. WTF is that? And what and who the f*ck is ...Duetsche Bank? And their 'special" banking section of elitist..."Wealth Management" ...that is restricted..to only certain wealthy people.. ..I think of Game of Thrones and and the BanK of Bravos.. who the f*ck are they? and do they exist in our world? Who runs our government?.. who runs the SENATE.. Who has the real control. Are they just playing a game of thrones I see Mueller.. working through a never ending spider web. uncovering strand after strand.. working his way to the center, not being able to go back.. only to finally be eaten by the spider in the middle. I see Trump as the pawn.. and wonder who is the King. I begin to realize.. I do not know what is the fantasy and what is the reality.. Are we not the Goliath we believe ourselves be.... but a David.. a stone's turn away from our own destruction. Is it even POSSIBLE for US to survive? It's all so unbelievable.. it's all so seemingly impossible.. that my base beliefs are being challenge as to whether they are just my FANTASY..and I am now confronted with the REALITY. And how ...the only way I see...... to Make America Great Again is to.. Put me back in my Fantasy |
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Seriously.. I can't take it anymore... banging my head up against THE WALL.. WE talk of freedom.. like it's something real.. like it's a goal..when its being taken away from us ... in this moment We talk of the destruction of our democracy.. like it can happen.. when it happening right in front of eyes WE talk of being able to control our destiny.. when we have no control of our own lives. When REALITY says Freedom, Democracy. and our destiny has Never been ours to own. Because.. I can't even LIVE my own Life.. Please... PUT ME BACK IN MY FANTASY
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We get caught in the battle of control...Between those who want it.. How does someone who doesn't want control.. but of their own life.. how can that person choose a side and win.. How can sheep choose between those that would shear them. Please...PUT ME BACK IN MY FANTASY
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1/25/2019 10:10 am |
It is indeed a daily struggle of survival. I feel the same way.
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It is indeed a daily struggle of survival. I feel the same way. For someone else "their freedom" is measured by their ability to take freedom from others. It make them FEEL free..When in fact they are not. But freedom is not defined by things.. but by choices.. the choice to be able to live your life...make your own choices.. empower yourself For the last two years .. I have not had freedom...I have been forced to live by the choices of others..That has "occupied" me in lieu of my own choices... I have been restricted by the choices I CAN MAKE...And even then... the Choices I do make disenfranchise Me, "Shut" Me Down.., and making Me feel powerless.. I have lost the only true freedom.. the belief I can be free. I really do need to be .. PUT BACK IN MY FANTASY..
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Hell......... yes... I'm more angry more than I have ever been.. I'm angry about reality....but you see I ALWAYS been angry about that? I have always been angry about knowing the reality of LIFE... So angry in fact the only way to survive it is not admit it. I have ALWAYS lived in the fantasy... I could accept MY fantasy...because I had no other choice.. I could deal with it, in my OWN way.. because there was no other way.. I COULD deal with it. You believe in GOD.. great.. deal with it your way.. Making me believe in God, No, I got my own pretend.....Thank You...You see it's not Someone else's pretending that gets me to change.. It's MY confrontation with reality. I'll let you fools pretend.. because I was pretending too.. but you see, there was a big difference between us.... I knew the truth I wasn't guessing and needed confirmation....and in MY truth.....the only person I HAD TO FOOL was MYSELF. Please .. PUT ME BACK IN MY FANTASY.
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I'm not worried about Trump.. I'm not even worried about what he's doing to Us.. I'm not worried we can't overcome him..And if we can't...we don't deserve to. I'm worried about me.. and what this has done to me.. Not now, but after he's gone.. I know.. I don't have enough time to restore my faith..I don't know if it's possible ...Trump will live with me for the rest of my life. Faith, it seems is more easily lost.. than is gained.. I have spent my entire life trying to gain faith in my fellow human beings..I have overcome many trials to keep faith with America. I have kicked and scratched, pretended and lied to myself, about the evolution of man an America. About how we are better than we really are. Trump has shattered it....and I won't be able to get it back. My reality is... I lived in the dark... in the "allegory of the cave"...defining shadows of good and evil, truth and lies, and ugliness and beauty. From the time of Plato until now... we have all have the freedom to see it the way we wanted..It did not defined what we saw.. but who we were. But today.. in shrinking world, of information technology, speed, knowledge, and conflict.... there is no time to pretend... we are forced to see the light.. shadows become real and undeniable.. It's simply not a better life, to be forced to confront the reality. So my expanding universe needs to be shrunk.. I have to return to the my island of the allegory of the cave...I have to pretend again.. I have to breathe in an out..and see the good, beauty and truth.. in just being able to do that. I MUST become my own humanity.
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