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Lock Down Musings Today I miss my wife. We used to spend long winters together in virtual isolation, somehow much better than actual isolation. She is long gone, but my heart still holds her close to me. I have the dogs for company, but have nor managed to teach them a single card game, but they did eat my battleship. I have cleaned rooms and closets and faced every last memory one can stand to face in such a short time. I long for the companionship of co workers and friends, the other old farts and their coffee. I miss a whisky at the Pub. Losing a little cash at pool now and then. I miss the things that have become my small way of life. My prayers go out to everyone, to be safe and be well, remember we are all in this together. Don't rush things, the solitude and introspect will do us all well. God Bless |
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I pray that everyone is staying well.
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Your blog made me reflect on one that I am contemplating writing.... about senior depression and suicides. It's not just this covid thing.... that doesn't affect our daily lives like it does others who have to go to work and can't, so they can't pay their bills or take care of their families. But just getting older in general.... this old age is not what I had envisioned, because the times are totally different from when my grandparents lived. I find myself thinking, "What difference does it make if I clean out that closet?" What difference does it make if I wash those windows?" In fact, what difference does anything really make? I really don't have any desire to go out and be around people.... and sometimes, I ignore the telephone. Maybe it's all the deaths of close friends and family members in the last few months? Maybe it's just the winter blues and warmer weather will lighten my mood? But I know that I myself am in control of how I react to everything..... but sometimes, I just don't give a damn. I feel sorry for those older folks who have NOTHING and NOBODY ….. and I can understand the high suicide rate among the elderly. And I imagine it is higher than most realize, because some are probably attributed to natural causes because they are elderly. Be a prism, spreading God's light and love, not a mirror reflecting the world's hatred.
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Tommorrow, I am actually going out to lunch with two of my girlfriends. We will wear masks when we meet but have lunch out on a porch while social distancing. I miss my girlfriends. My husband was a very difficult man and it has often crossed my mind, how fortunate it is that he is on the other side during this situation. We had gone through a few natural disasters together. The first was an earthquake where he was called out on emergency. He was an electrician. The second one was a Derecho disaster which knocked out the power. I was the one who had to go into the survival mode and find the resources to take care of the family. I could just imagine Grumpy and I quarantined in close quarters together. This was a relationship that required that we give each other a lot of space. Abracadabra 
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Big Warm Hugssss~~~ 
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Sad worrying times indeed, especially for those who have lost loved ones. Stay safe.
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