The house smells.......
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Posted:Dec 10, 2022 7:41 am
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2022 8:54 am 5160 Views
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so I am up earlier than normal after a night at work making a Lumberjack Breakfast for my . She turns 15 today. My house is smelling amazing of cinnamon swirl waffles. Along with scrambled eggs and hash browns and a frozen cocoa on the side.
I have fresh coffee brewing.
The house does not usually smell this good, normally we grab a yogurt or fruit and go.
In just three more years , she will be gone, off to living life on her own.
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Are You Serious???????? Rant
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Posted:Dec 6, 2022 10:01 am
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2022 8:51 pm 4986 Views
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So last night I get this text, "Hey, How you been?"
I know the person, so my brain goes to....'So you aren't getting any right now'
I spent a good long time not responding at all. I thought of blocking, I thought an F.U. , I thought of explaining why I just don't want to be a part of this persons world.
I know my place in his life and years ago, I accepted that place. I was a different person after two very abusive relationships, I had no self worth, no value.
Two years before my accident, he was in a car/semi collision that took his 's life and left him severely messed up. I took him to PT, shopping, helped with chores, listened to his feelings and grief....like any friend/GF might do.
When he was on his feet and feeling better, he was gone. Chasing some girl he felt was better. Then he got a ton of money for his accidents, and was having the party of a lifetime. On the road doing music, etc.....
He found himself alone around the time I was released to go home from my accident, so I was of no use. He decided to wait until I got "better". He did not offer to help me get to PT, or visit just as a companion, or even once shoot a text to see how I felt, how I was doing. He did message just before I went for all my surgeries, telling me he loved me and could we make it work. I said, "Sure, no sex for a year and we work on us and bonding"......So he left  .
So it is the Holiday season and whoever filled that time slot the last few months has dumped him for better fare. Now here is the texting.....the keep in touching...the oh I missed you....
Now this morning, "Are you better now" " Can you go out"
Me (deep breath) (deep breath) (deep breath) .........type......."Yes, I am doing great. Glad to hear life is wonderful for you. Merry Christmas and the Best of New Years! I am very much healed." ....send.....block.....delete all conversations.
I think he wanted to know if I was better enough to strut about like a show pony on the arm of a narcissist. What happened....I had time to know my worth, to know that people who don't really care, don't really belong.
Am I never going to date again? Oh heck, I don't make it a week . I have a weakness for handsome fellas....lol.
Don't worry, it was just a rant. I am just proud I did not cave in to it all, like I once would have.
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A gift
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Posted:Dec 1, 2022 9:01 am
Last Updated:Dec 1, 2022 7:31 pm 5336 Views
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So one of these was left for each of us anonymously......
Someone from the community gave use these little key chains.
They read
May you be proud of the work you do
The person you are
And the difference you make
Thank You
I tell you it wasn't a million dollars and a pony, but it didn't leave a dry eye among us all.
What I have seen in the people I work with is a real blessing. There are always staffing shortages so they work extra hard and give up a lot. They all bond with our residents, giving them friendship, family , and home....many like nothing they have ever had.
I have the greatest respect for the men and women I work with. I am glad to see someone else feels the same.
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Merry Christmas
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Posted:Nov 29, 2022 6:13 pm
Last Updated:Dec 1, 2022 9:04 am 5127 Views
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My April cannot stand the idea of cutting a living tree for Christmas, so a few years ago we did this solution. A driftwood tree made up of driftwood collected on many adventures. It is not decorated yet, this year, icicle lights and snowflakes will be going on it. We like keeping it extremely simple.
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Holidays
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Posted:Nov 27, 2022 8:59 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2022 7:12 pm 5736 Views
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The Holiday season this year is shaken up like a snow globe. I am working a new job and still getting my feet under me. Catching up on glass and when old find out I am making pieces they want to have something...like an addiction.
I used to have trained to order a minimum of 6 months in advance......time to retrain....lol.
My family, like many, has spread to the wind. Part of this is my fault, part is just growth. Last year I finally moved to my home near the beach with my flowers and the quiet. It makes a two hour drive to the nearest that does not live with me, but that is fine. We visit and share time frequently, so it is not a bad thing. All of the steps and my older two are in their thirties now, it feels time for me to sprout my wings and be on my own a bit. LOL, I mean they are getting up there in years. I stayed young, but no, they all got so old  .
Soon, April will be grown and gone. It is time to reach for my ultimate childhood goal. I want to be aunt Vi. I still have post cards from aunt Vi riding camels in front of the pyramids. I want to be her. Perhaps not a global traveler (she had no ) but a traveler, an explorer, someone who begins life over in their later years and lives the last days to their fullest. Gone more than 30 years, but vibrant in the hearts of those blessed to know her.
So as we look for time between Christmas and new year to gather the family from the four corners, to plan sleep overs and game nights, stop just a moment to think someone there is going to want to be you someday. They are watching and amazed.
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Working T-Day
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Posted:Nov 24, 2022 8:39 pm
Last Updated:Nov 25, 2022 9:14 pm 6345 Views
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So I worked Thanksgiving, did a little brunchie with family. Went to work and did the whole spread for residents unable to go home for the holiday. We had a great time.
I have always worked great places, but this feels like the best place yet.
So this Thanksgiving, I am very Thankful for the people I work with....The priveledge to assist others in having their "best" life., my amazing family, and my world of friends.
All of you together make life something truly wonderful!
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It has been a week!
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Posted:Nov 20, 2022 9:16 pm
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2022 2:40 am 5903 Views
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Finally! I made it through all the clearances for my new job and Monday will be my last shadow day aka training. I have fun coworkers, incredible patients. Its very cool.
I drive 2 blocks to work...less than 5 minutes. Very Ideal. I am, however, already scheduled for overtime. This is concerning, since I have a lot of glass projects to get made before Dec. and its close.
Hopefully 2023 will go smoothly and I can get ahead on Christmas orders. So much stood in my way this fall to get going, circumstances out of control. I did not take on very many, thankfully.
I should have maybe waited until after Christmas for a new job, but it is what it is, and it is an awesome job. So I am glad I moved on it.
I don't know why, but I have always had a need for 1 1/2 to 2 jobs. A close friend says I do it to avoid relationships.....maybe a little guilty there. I think I am just the hyper responsible type. I want my bills paid and the future provided for.
I'll be pretty busy for a while, So I am hoping and wishing the best of Holiday Seasons for all of you!
Have a brilliant New Year, may it be the best one yet.
Big Hugs
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Supporting a Dream is not necessarily financial
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Posted:Nov 11, 2022 9:31 pm
Last Updated:Nov 12, 2022 8:46 am 5736 Views
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Supporting a dream does not mean financing the process. Or financing anything else in the partners life. People need to work and be responsible for their own....whether is is a share with someone else or their own responsibility.
I don't speak of a dream as in...we love each other. A dream refers to....a business, a plan for the future, a career, etc. Some venture outside ones self that has some reward whether personal or financial.
A few years ago I ran a mini marathon, my longest races to date. I did not win....no surprise. I'll be honest, I never was a spectacular runner, good form, moderate speed, and I did it. I was a member of a council group and some people from my group decided since there was going to be no one there for me "to see me off" they were going to do it. They showed up race day with banners and posters, they cheered when we took off. Some went to major check points, and they were on that last stretch cheering again. Now that is support. Not a check or a new pair of shoes, but just being there.
When I talk about stained glass. Art and design are my dreams. I feel good when I create beautiful designs. I am paid handsomely...which I don't mind either. When I order supplies its $$$. When I get the chance to, I buy out other stained glass artists. This is expensive. It is not yard sale pricing. Second hand yes. Yard sale pricing, NO.
I buy old glass from buildings at auction, I buy scrap. I buy whole sheets.
It is business and a sensible thing to do. This is not something you ask a love interest to do for you. This is not even a decision that involves them. Company money is not personal money.
Showing lack of support is demonstrated like, throwing a tantrum when I might leave the state or country on my job and only my expenses are covered. not being supportive is being jealous over meetings with construction bosses. Meetings are required. Lack of support is sometimes shown by destruction of property and physical violence. These are things that cause serious stress and other problems. This is what lack of support is
This is the person you do not keep, when you keep the dream.
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Words of Wisdom
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Posted:Nov 11, 2022 3:37 pm
Last Updated:Nov 12, 2022 8:39 am 5661 Views
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Many years ago on the east coast, I was up late with friend (Nancy) we were baking a gingerbread town for the for Christmas. Nancy's , My , my sisters two.....
Its a nice holiday story if that is all it was. My was approaching One....he was scooting around occasionally biting Nancy's toes (not sure he ever grew out of that). My sisters and Nancy's were the same ages Kindergarten/first grade.
Christmas is indeed a season of miracles and thankfullness.
Just a few years earlier we almost lost Nancy to an untraceable illness. She was pasty white, sick, couldn't keep a thing down, weak, tired, it was a devastating time for her husband, Here they finally had all the time they wanted together and Nancy fell deathly ill. Finally a light was shed, a specialist found that one magic test to clear up everything, Nancy would survive!
Nancy and her husband had only just retired. After lives of hoping dreaming, and wishing, Nancy was pregnant. That Christmas her was six, and Nancy was 71.
Word to the wise, tis coming fast upon us, the season of miracles. Not certain who among us might need this, but careful what you wish for.
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Photo Friday....Art
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Posted:Nov 11, 2022 1:45 am
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2022 7:37 pm 5735 Views
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Do you know why Andy Warhol's Campbell Soup Can paintings have made millions?
Because a barely known artist, eating soup every day, to afford his dreams....painted them.
He believed in being an artist, and became as common a name in the world of art as Campbell's Soup was in homes across America.
Never wonder if you have what it takes, only wonder if you are willing to give what it takes.
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