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Show Up NaaaayKid and Bring Food
Posted:Sep 27, 2008 8:00 am
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2008 7:53 pm
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So Now I am cohabitating with a TAURUS Man. Taurus Sun, Capricorn Moon, Gemini Rising to Be Exact. Capricorn Moon means he approaches Matters of the Heart in a Business Like Manner. This is good because being practical often has better results than being emotional. Gemini is the "Right Now" Man. Move while the Iron is still Hot or Gemini Rising Loses Interest.

Taurus is Simple. Show up Naked and Bring Food.

The Naked Part is Easy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bringing Food is the Challenge.

Before Mr. Joe, I seldomly cooked. I made reservations best. My younger and I used to joke about who can go the longest without using the stove. Neither of us touched it for about two years. He worked in a restaurant and ate Microwave Pizza at home. Everything I cooked was microwavable.

When I went to Texas - Mr. Dufus was terrified that I would cook something with tofu in it so his fried up all of Daddy's favorite greasy foods. It's a lucky escape that relationship went South. I didn't find Love but I did find the Wal-Mart Bakery. I discovered that Baking Bread is a Spiritual Experience.

I found myself living alone in Virginia. Reservations were no longer within my financial realities. George Foreman became my best friend. I acquired George at a thrift shop for three dollars. I used the stove for boiling eggs.

Joe comes into the picture. Of course, I did his chart. The first thing I noticed was Gemini Rising and RIGHT NOW!!!!! Capricorn Moon has that business mindset that I can observe, learn and utilize. Pleasing Taurus requires that I conjour up my Betty Crocker Memories with a little bit of help from All Recipes but I'm doing okay.

It was a cold rainy weekend. I commented to Joe that this is a good Chili Day. I had to work but Joe had the Day Off. Joe made the Chili and commented that he doesn't need recipes. Dang! He may be a better cook than I am.

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Monticello and Other Meccas
Posted:Sep 27, 2008 6:51 am
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2008 7:54 pm
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Last week, I was in the breakroom at Sam's Club. The C0-Workers were talking about places that they've always wanted to visit. I found it very ironic that for years my Mecca has been Monticello and now, years later Monticello is just a few miles from from my job.

I commented to my co-workers. "I've always wanted to go visit Monticello. I think there is a change that I will actually be able to see Montecello." Laughter filled the room.

It doesn't appear that I will be going with Mr. Joe. I love Historical Places. When we went to Montpellier (James Madison's Place) with Mr. Joe's Mother and Sister, I noticed that Mr. Joe didn't seem too thrilled. Later he told me that his Father was a history teacher and they spent summers visiting obscure historical places when he would rather be playing football.

Alas, I will find a girlfriend who loves history much as I do and we will do Monticello together.

After Monticello will be other Meccas. Maybe the New Yankee Stadium although Mr. Joe might like the Old One Better. I might have to beebop over to the Statue of Liberty and Grant's Tomb afterwards. I just hope my Higher Power doesn't make me move to New York to See the New Meccas.

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Retail Therapy On The Bay -$$$$$$$$$
Posted:Sep 22, 2008 8:42 am
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2008 7:16 pm
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I love to Shop but I detest driving long distances to do it. Mostly, I like shopping for bargains and Folks in Charlotte like to spend alto of $$$$$$$$$.

That is all good and great but Cashiers at Sam's Club don't make a whole lot of $$$$$$$ to spend for Retail Therapy. The Price of Gas makes it even more so.

I love Used Book Stores and Oj ai California had Bart's Books while Ventura had The Phantom Bookstore with it's very own Ghosts. Alas, the little Town I moved to in West Forgotten By Santa Virginity didn't even have a Barnes and Noble. So, I discovered Book dealers on Amazon. I LOVE the internet.

Lately, I found myself surfing on the Bay to start my own Horary Dream Catching Place. I found a 1954 Book - Problem Solving with Horary Astrology so I bought it. Old Books on the Subject are often the Best.

I found my sister's site and discovered that she's clearing her closet. I bought five pair of Blue Jeans - Cool so I bought them.

My sister in Arkansas told me that she was on the phone to her in North Carolina while on the computer and noticed a Sale from Bonnie from Virginia. "You will never believe this." she told her .

"Dang, you should have told me that you wanted them and I would have sent them to you." she told me. "Naw! This is your business and I want to support your success because I want my own business to be successful."

"This saves me a trip to the Thrift Shop to find new Jeans because I lost weight and need new ones," I advised her.

"I've lost Weight and need to get rid of the old ones," she replied.

Somethings never change among sisters.

Next I bought Embroidery Hoops for the Dreamcathers that I plan to make.

Horary Dreams is about to become a Reality.

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Life With Mr. Joe, Sammy's Place and a 12 Step Inventory of Fear -
Posted:Sep 21, 2008 10:08 am
Last Updated:Sep 22, 2008 8:16 am
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12 Step Training Teaches us to Inventory about
Resentment
FEAR and..........$EX

It's a form of Fact finding - Fact Facing and Troubleshooting to FIX IT!!!!

Step 4 - Made A Searching and Fearless Moral Inventory of Ourselves. quoted by the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind" timothy/1-7 ...
quoted in the Bible.


This Blog is a Focus on FEAR and the Workplace

A few years ago, FEAR of DRIVING was listed on an Inventory Lo and Behold - A few months later I acquired a job as a DRIVER for a company that contracted with the DOT. The job consisted of assisting stranded drivers, removing debris (including roadkill) off the interstate, traffic control after accidents, ad infinitum. I learned to drive in all kinds of weather conditions. A year later, I found myself driving on the Texas Super Highways. Four Months after the Texas experience, I drove a U-Haul from Texas to Nevada. When I got to Nevada, I acquired a Wal-Mart job 40 miles from my Abode and drove a "God Car" that overheated frequently and went "ding ding ding" all the way to WalMart. I even went to Truckdriver School but decided I don't like Driving THAT much.

I was REALLY in my comfort zone at Wal-Mart's Meat Market in Alleghany County, Virginia. The Work was Physical but easily doable. I liked my Boss and Co-Workers. I loved my humble Abode on Main Street that was less than two miles from Work. I had decided that "No Man's Land" was just fine with me. Alone is better than dealing with "Pain in the Gluteous Maximus Himself."

Along Comes Mr. Joe. Taurus Sun, Capricorn Moon with Gemini Rising. He has enough Earth to bring a feeling of stability with enough Air to not be an old stick in the mud.

Taurus Sun Men are easy to please. Show up Naked and bring Food. Capricorn Moon has a practical almost business like approach to matter of the heart. Gemini Rising is the "RIGHT NOW!" Man. Quick Decisions and Move while the Iron is Hot or Gemini Rising loses interest. The Opportunity was presented so....... I made the choice to "GO FOR IT!"

Hence, I am now sleeping naked in Mr. Joe's Bed and cooking more than I have in years. AllRecipe fills in the Gaps missing from my Old Betty crocker Memories. My theory is that Love is something to grow into rather than something to fall into. Nevertheless, each Day with Mr. Joe is more precious than the previous day.

It was necessary for me to transfer to a Closer Wal-Mart. The Closest Wal-Mart is NOT a SuperCenter so I opted to transfer to Sam's Club hoping that they would put me in the Bakery or Meat Department.

What happened is they made me a CASHIER!!!!! Gadzook!!! This is almost scarier than the driving job. People, people lots of people and $$$$$$$$$. My brain is totally retrograde when it comes to numbers. Oh Well! I will give it six months and transfer someplace else. If I appeared baffled while taking care of all those customers..............I was.

Each cash register usually does averages over $10,000 of business a day. I had nightmares of making mistakes and getting fired. I finally concluded...........If I get fired so what. It's not misconduct. I'll collect unemployment and get another job. It's certainly not the first time I've been fired from a job. Getting Fired is not on the Agenda but if it happens I'll survive.

So.........Last week, I was counting the register and discovered that I was $18. short. Opps! I am sooooooooooo Fired. I came home and started doing an on-line application as a Welfare Worker. More $$$$$ and Health Insurance After all that's what I went to College for.

The Next Day I was called into the Office. "Here it comes," It was brought to my attention the $18. Shortage and the fact that a customer almost walked out with an unpaid Pizza. The Manager realizes that I haven't worked a cash register before but try to be a little more careful. I wasn't fired. That day, my cash register was only 15 Cents Short. Perfect would be better but that won't get me in trouble.

I was advised to look at this as a learning and growing experience. I have a fear of lots of people and dealing with lots of money but I am walking through it. Still I don't think I am going to become an accountant anymore likely than I will be a Truckdriver. I am driving 27 miles one way to work and I still have that Job Application with Social Services. Life is Good.

FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real
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Hi Five Marines or Other Armed Forces!!!!! Insults Not Acceptable!!!!!
Posted:Sep 18, 2008 3:58 pm
Last Updated:Apr 9, 2013 11:25 pm
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Last Week, I was cashiering for a Customer. A young black woman in a Military Uniform. "You guys are the real heros and need to be told that." She smiled and replied, "We are glad to serve."

Bloggers even if they are from Canada have a constitution right to call Marines "Pro Life Marine Killers." Marines, Soldiers and Sailors have made tremendous sacrifices to assure that she has that right. Canada does benefit from the Grunt Work done by our United States Defense as do many other Nations.

We would all be screwed without a Strong Defense because there are crazies who would do us Harm if we allowed it. The Folks who are part of that defense are our . My , my niece and their peers.

During the Vietnam Era - Young Men - Our Brothers, Husbands and a few female relatives were not treated with respect when they came home. Many were drafted and sent there involutarily. Agree or disagree with the war treating them with disrespect is just plain wrong.

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The Big Bay - Horary Dreams - and A Phone Conversation with Little Sis
Posted:Sep 18, 2008 8:27 am
Last Updated:Sep 11, 2023 6:13 pm
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Last Week, I was surfing around (e)Bay trying to set up a Store. When I lived in West Virginia, It was illegal to do Astrological Charts for a fee. It might be interesting to go on ahead, sell the service, get arrested and challenge the law. It might help to repeal that Stupid Law.

Instead I found a way around the Stupid Law. I started making Dreamcatchers which I could sell legally and include the Chart. I decided to carry on this practice in my Store on the Bay. Right now, I am swimming in the Bay - not Lost just don't know the FiretrUCK where I'm going and trying to figure out how I am going to get there when I do.

Little by little, I'm getting there.

My Sister has a working Store via the Bay. We are both on another site. She sent me an email asking about my handle. Soon we were exchanging messages and I thought the heck with it, "Pick up the Phone and Call Her."

Last Summer, I took the Greyhound Hades Road trip from Nevada to Arkansas where my siblings reside because my Brother was dying. There was an altercation that started out because my Siblings were uncomfortable with my Spiritual Beliefs. It escalated into a very ugly scene.

My life at that time was very much in Limbo. I considered the possibility of relocating to Arkansas to be closer to family but that incident indicated that a relocation to Arkansas might not be entirely prudent. Does my family really think I am a terrible villain. I'm not sure. If I traveled to Arkansas, would I really be welcome by my family. I was assigned the role of Outcast as a . It has been my experience that if you are not respected where you are, you don't belong there.

So instead, I landed across the boarder in Virginia. Things fell into place - I met Mr. Joe on SFF. This time I didn't have to travel half-way across the Nation for a Love Connection.

Nevertheless, Life is too short to carry resentments. I wouldn't mind having a positive relationship with my Sister. I have my own Life, Live, Livelihood and Community Regardless.

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Finding a Right Gift, WebSite Building and A Text Message From Ex-Hubby
Posted:Sep 14, 2008 12:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 18, 2008 7:41 am
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A 12 Step Sponsee is turning 17 the latter part of September. My California 12 Step Advisor is turning 38 a few days later.

so...........The Challenge is finding the perfect gift for them

Joannie - My Sponsee is easy. She's a old California Hippy like I am. Trendy Earrings will work for her.

Annie - My California Spiritual Advisor. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......... Perhaps a First Edition Big Book

and for Both of Them

The 12 Step Ball!!!!
Ask it a question, give it a shake, and the answer appears
Call Your Sponsor
One Day at a Time

Easy Does It
You Need a Meeting
First Things First

You Can Recover
Life On Life's Terms
What Step are You On

Ad Infinitum..........


I do love the internet. Find the Gift - Give the Site the Info and the Gifts are on their way.

Now I need to find a book on WebSite Building for Dummies - Joe wants one on Sports Memobillia and I want one on Astrology.
At least I got an e Bay site started Yeah!!!!!!

also............. I got a Text Message from Ex-Hubby. Do I want to attend his Wedding in North Carolina and be a Witness.

Not only NO but NO FiretrUCKIN WAY!!!!!!

Joannie my Sponsee who frequently sponsors me says, "You need to do an inventory on that guy!" We are all responsible for our own happiness and have to deal with the consequences of our choices. My relationship with Mr. Joe is too important to compromise.

From Now On Old Grumpy is on his own. The Next time he has a heart attack and his young bride takes off with his firebird......... Oh Well!!!!!!!!!!! His Choice - His Consequences. I'll not be his Old Stand By so that he can play with the young things any more.

Life's on Life's Terms - I found the road to Sam's Club and Beyond. I'm staying on it.
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I'm Not Lost - I Just Don't Know Where the FiretrUCK I'm At.................
Posted:Sep 13, 2008 6:34 am
Last Updated:Sep 14, 2008 9:48 am
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When Mr. Joe was showing me the route to Sam's Club - He showed me two different routes. The Stright Way and the Short Way. I usually opt for the Stright Way because I can very VERY directionally challenged.

I DID find a short cut to the Stright Way. Lover's Lane to Route 33 to Route 120 which is to Road to Sam's Club. It saves me from driving through Downtown Gordonsville which is a very good thing.

I did find an even different route via the Triple AAA Site. I decided to take that route home last week. It goes through the busy part of Charlottesville which is more city than I am used to but sometime the only way out is through. Dispite missing one road (Mr. Joe advised that missing that road was a good thing) - I made it home with no problems.

The next day going to work, I missed the Lover's Lane Shortcut and eventually realized that I was going to work a different way. Oh Well! I been on this route before. I'll make it to work with time to Spare. - That would have been the case - If I would have turned on Rt 120 North instead of Rt 120 South.

Instead I went through More City than I am used to - The University of Virginia and finally BumFiretrUCK!!!! - I don't know where the heck I am.

Thank God for Cell Phone - I called work to explain the circumstance and that I would be late. In the olden days, I would have to find a telephone booth - get out a bunch of change in order to give them a call. I found a Service Station and asked for direction. Get on I-64 West to exit 118B to 120 NORTH and the road to Sam's Club.

My second day on a Cash Register Solo went much smoother than the first Day. They asked if I wanted to work until closing to make up for the lost time. No Problem. Later that night, I got on the Cell Phone to tell Mr. Joe that I was working later than expected so would be home later. Gotta Love them cell phones.

I don't usually look at being lost as being a negetive because it introduces me to new places that will make sense at a later time. Still I don't like being late for work. I'll NOT Be missing Lover's Lane this morning. I will be taking the Short Route home this evening.
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Sobriety Is Not A Virtue!!!!!!
Posted:Sep 11, 2008 6:42 am
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2008 10:17 pm
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I committed myself to becoming a permanent teatotaller at the age of 21 and after falling off the wagon a few times, I've been on it for good since the age of 24.

A wise woman quoted, "Alcoholism is not a sin, therefore sobriety is not a Virtue." Thank God! I would much rather be a sober sinner than a drunken saint. I quickly discovered that I didn't have to be a Saint just because I became a teatotaller.

Some folks in My first Home Group, called the Rafters in Newhall, California told me that there was the perfect man for me and his name was Pyscho. When I finally met him, he had black leathers, tattoos, earrings and a Harley Davidson with the licence plate saying Satan8.

I remember being on the back of that Harley and observing a Minister in another car shaking his head. A few years later, Pyscho introduced me to the joys of Hootch Kootchy Dancing. There was a contest at the Palamino in Las Vegas. He critiqued the dancers. I listened, got on stage and won the contest. After winning it a second time, I thought, the heck with it I'm going professional. I eventually quit my hospital job and took it off for mankind full time. I did it sober.

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Thoughts on 12 Step Recovery
Posted:Sep 10, 2008 8:03 pm
Last Updated:Sep 12, 2008 2:51 pm
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When I first came into the group, I was the youngest person in the group. I turned 21 and suddenly it was a gOOd time to become a permanent teetotaler. Actually, my girlfriend asked me if I wanted to go to meetings with her because she didn't want to go alone. I went to support her. She decided that she wasn't an Alcoholic. I decided that I was an Alcoholic so I stayed.

I went off the wagon twice. Once at 7 months and the second time at 2 years. Both slips were inspired by broken hearts.

My Sobriety Date is November 27, 1977 - On November 27, 1978 - I attended the funeral of a 29 year old woman who was found flat on her face dead at the Little Brown Church in Canyon Country, California. She died on Thanksgiving. Two years before on Thanksgiving, she told me "After I finish this drunk, I am going to get flat on my face at the Little Brown Church and ask God for help."

In one city he found a crooked woman in the synagogue on the Sabbath-day. This poor woman had not been able to straighten herself for eighteen years, but was stopped over in a pitiful manner.

When Jesus saw her he pitied her. Calling her to him, he said, "Woman, you are set free from this infirmity, which has bound you so many years." Then he laid his hands upon her bent back and immediately she was able to stand straight again.

Luke 13:11 to Luke 15:32

It was the first indication that there is indeed a HIGHER POWER. Carol found her healing in Death and the Spirit Word. For whatever reason I continued of the Red Road of Life and found Recovery.

The first major Challenge was becoming with and Daddy was not interested. I decided the jerk was not worth drinking over - so I did the things I needed to do for recovery.

I was far from a perfect mother but neither of my boys have ever seen me drunk. My Younger was born - November 27, 1885. This was my Eight 12 Step Anniversary.

Last Month, I was sitting in a meeting at my old Home Group in West Virginia realizing that I am one of the elders in the group now. I've seen many of the members when they first came in. Now they are 12 Step Garu's.

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